Shaun left his phone at home today so I could use the internet sharing on it, I was playing on it and came across that the day after we had the argument, he’d added his ex on facebook. Last I heard, they didn’t even speak and hadn’t for years. Day later he deleted her along with the chat history…

Am I over thinking it, or is that hiding something? Because if I’d done that with my ex, he’d soon question what I was hiding. :(

Me and Shaun had quite an extreme argument on Saturday, he said some really hurtful things (he’s like me, commitment issues get the best of him sometimes), I thought I’d be able to just forgive and forget because I know he didn’t mean them… but ever since, it just plays in my mind. What if he did mean them and he’ll leave me and Finnley?

The reason that is the main concern is because the most hurtful thing he said was that sometimes he just wants to leave and be a weekend Dad, thing is, I gave him the chance to leave when I first found out that I was having Finnley because it happened quickly and most men would run for the hills. But he stayed and in that time, I’ve fallen deeply in love with him and gave him my full trust and didn’t hold back at all. I’ve never done that before and it felt like he stabbed my heart when he said what he did, I felt my walls go up :(

I want to forget what happened, but how can I? How can I go everyday scared that he doesn’t love me, that he could walk out the door because his commitment issues got the best of him? :/